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(no subject) [Jul. 30th, 2004|11:43 pm]
mikmonkey
god damn i hate englewood. its 100% old people. all i do is carve offensive sentences into the sand to watch the elderly have heart attacks. im missing derrons get together for this shit? i can be hanging out with the gang, Alicia, Zelban, Derron, Beer, Kobe, everyone.. but noooo im stuck with the god damn parents who bitch more than talk. and jesus tap dancing christ do they talk.
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(no subject) [Jul. 29th, 2004|08:24 am]
mikmonkey
Darn that song from Simply Red, Sunrise, its stuck in my head and i cant get it out!!!!!! "should be me, I dont know if its even in your mind at all" GRRRR!!! its a great freaking song, but i never thought i would like it. Alicia, you have great taste in music :)
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(no subject) [Jun. 10th, 2004|11:05 pm]
mikmonkey
Oh why cant I be what you need
a new improved version of me
but i'm nothing so good
no i'm nothing
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence of love and of sorrow
i beg for just one more tomorrow
where you hold me down fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you dont see me, you dont...

here i'm in between darkness and light
bleached and blinded by these nights
where im tossing and tortured til dawn
by you, visions of you then youre gone
the shock lifts the red from my face
when i hear someone's taking my place
how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel
when all, all that i did was for you

i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you dont..

i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you don't...

i break in two over you
i break in two over you, over you
i break in two
i would break in two for you
now you see me
now you don't
now you need me
now you don't


From Autumn to Ashes, Autumns Monlogue.
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(no subject) [Jun. 10th, 2004|10:04 pm]
mikmonkey
This is to Lacy, thank you so much! i love how the journal looks now, your my hero! I will try to make it up to you on friday. Once again, thank you Lacy, your the best.
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Pain, that familiar feeling. [Jun. 10th, 2004|07:50 pm]
mikmonkey
Every day someone throws at me another feeling, giving me highs and lows that generally only a drug addict ever gets the pleasure to experience. My soul is being torn apart by conflicting forces, one pulling me towards one way, the other dragging me down the abyss. Its becoming an empty spiral of hate and misery, where animosity is the dish that is always served. I have taken my fair share of lashes from the world, and with each lash i grin in order not to give this incarnation of hell some pleasure. Each Scar left on my body is a monument to my pain, and a symbol of my victory over my advesaries. I will fight to keep this candle lit, regardless of the pain that i must endure.
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(no subject) [Jun. 9th, 2004|11:13 pm]
mikmonkey
Take my advice on this, dont make love to a cop car, trust me, you will regret it the next day.
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(no subject) [Jun. 9th, 2004|09:32 pm]
mikmonkey
Work sucks.
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(no subject) [Jun. 8th, 2004|11:55 pm]
mikmonkey
Life is weighing down on me, killing me inside
Something I could never be will guide me to the new
Light
Frustrated
Sedated
I pray to myself
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(no subject) [Jun. 8th, 2004|11:41 pm]
mikmonkey
Work sucked worse than a 5 dollar hooker after you tip her a 20.
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(no subject) [Jun. 8th, 2004|01:19 pm]
mikmonkey
well, i did not get to see Saved today, so im a little disapointed. i did get to spend some time with my ex, which i loved. At one point i got lost looking into her eyes, i wonder how long i just starred. I would of given anything at that moment to be able to give her a kiss.
Im slowly coming the conclusion that i am constantly being judged by the people that mean the most to me. Sometimes my friends can be very accepting and caring, and other times they can rip my heart out. I just wish people could just accept me the same way i accept them.
At the office today, i was poking Corinne for the fun of it, when all of a sudden she hurt her shoulder. i felt so incredibly bad about. i just wanted to hold her and tell her im sorry for the rest of my life. I am generally not like that with people, but Corinne is diffrent. Along time ago she asked me in my car if i could ever physically hurt her, and of course i said no. But, that means that idea is in her head, and that i give the impression of having no control over my anger. i would kill myself before i ever layed a mark on her. Damn my emotions.. i never used to care, now i suddenly i would give my life for another.. i guess i really do love her, to bad im only a friend. and not even a good friend at that.
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